Post Traumatic Stress Disorder PTSD

Post Traumatic Stress Disorder or PTSD for short (or previously shell shock or battle fatigue syndrome), is a 'disorder of extinction' (abilities) in response to an extremely terrifying traumatic event, either through experience or as a witness. The new DSM-5 classification of this disorder as one of extinction emphasizes the fact that sufferers are disordered in the normal extinction process of an understandable fear response. Sufferers are unlike the general population that usually recovers or 'extinguishes' normal fear response within 1 month. In short, a pivotal characteristic of this diagnosis is persistence or the inability to cause extinction. 

PTSD may also be considered as a group of symptoms that may occur as a result of the trauma. The US Diagnostic & Statistical Manual, 5th Edition (or, for short, DSM-5) of 2013 has recently re-classified PTSD (from among 'Anxiety Disorders') to  'Trauma & Stressor-Related Disorders'. (Read an article or see the video below for an introductory summary about this classification). This classification therefore reinforces the idea that the inability to extinguish fear relates specifically to some type of trauma.

This post will discuss the symptoms (the core ones of which include re-experiencing, avoidance, and hyperarousal) and conditions as set out by the DSM-5 that should be present in order for a diagnosis of PTSD. 

Criterion A: On of the following list of types of exposure to a traumatic event called a 'stressor' (at least one is required). Common traumatic events include the following. BTW, Interpersonal trauma are more likely to be a cause than other types. However, the other types are more likely for those with acute childhood trauma, especially if the person lacks social support systems. Example(s): war / combat; sexual violence, like rape or even THREATENED sexual violence; real OR threatened injury; violent muggings; accidents; natural disasters. 

• direct exposure
• witnessing the event
• learning that someone close was exposed to the event
• indirect exposure to details of the trauma, commonly in the course of professional duties, as in the case of first responders, and medics. 

 

Criterion B: At least one of the following symptoms of some type of INTRUSION (ie unwanted interference) aka re-experiencing. This criterion may be likened to a haunting by the ('ghost' of the) traumatic event. Essentially, although the event occurred in the past, it forces the sufferer to re-experience it. These intrusions can take several forms that include the following and are often triggered by something the sufferer perceives as similar to the initial traumatic event. Personal triggers are very personal and can include anything at all; from physical attributes (that resemble those of an attacker), tone of voice, a touch in a way that has some personal significance to the sufferer, certain type of behavior observed in others (like movements, mannerisms, speech, management style, etc), to objects and so on. In a sense, re-experiencing is like a mild form of dissociative identify disorder in that another fragmented part of your past self 'fronts' and as Dr Dawn Elise (aka on YouTube as Doc Snipes) said in her video while discussing C-PTSD, these fragments need to be fragmented.

• Flashback re-experiences. Flashbacks can be very frightening. Unlike normal memories, a flashback is the sensation that the traumatic event is happening all over again, happening right now, replacing the present scene.
• In severe cases, this may even cause dissociative states.
• Video about somatoform symptoms, ie physical re-experiencing of past trauma: 'When Dissociation Gets Physical' by CTAD Clinic (Dr Mike Lloyd)
• Frequently having unwanted, upsetting thoughts or memories about a traumatic event
• Being physically responsive to reminders of the traumatic event (for example, feeling a surge in your heart rate, for starting to sweat)
• Having very strong feelings of distress when reminded of the traumatic event
• Nightmares
• Distress (like emotional) after exposure to traumatic reminders
• Physical reactivity after exposure to traumatic reminders

Criterion C: At least one of the following forms of AVOIDANCE. Avoidance is also a key component in the diagnosis of complex trauma and dissociative conditions. Avoidance is a natural and inevitable response to trauma. After a traumatic event, people generally try to avoid trauma-related stimuli / triggers, whether internal (like feelings) and or external (reminders). However, as discussed otherwise regarding anxiety phobic responses, avoidance becomes a diagnostic criterion when the sufferer's avoidance interferes with his or her ability to have a normal life. In the normal population, persons eventually overcome the  avoidant behavior and continue with their life as before. Unfortunately for those who can not do this, while avoidance offers short term relief (like a drug) to the sufferer, continuing to depend on it like one might an addiction can interfere with normal life over the long term. Too much avoidance eventually leads to simply engaging less in life. Essentially, the avoidance therefore creates a situation of loss of whatever the sufferer would have done in enjoyment of their life. Worse still, the actual phobia may remain unresolved over the long term. For instance, if you are fearful of driving again after a vehicular accident, the accident is still controlling you, even though you think that you are avoiding the reality of it. This is why treating trauma-related avoidant behavior is very important.

• Trauma-related external reminders. Example(s):
• avoiding the scene of an accident, taking smaller country roads versus major highways or being a passenger of a car after an accident
• avoiding places like countries, homes of certain people, stores, neighborhoods, etc
• avoiding situations like work places, employment characterized by bullying and other harmful behaviors.
• avoiding contact with society by driving at only certain times of the day and avoiding public locations.
• avoiding relationships (like sexual relationships) that are reminiscent of a toxic relationship (perhaps in which rape occurred).
• Trauma-related thoughts or feelings / internal triggers. Example(s):
• having dissociative amnesia or sinking into dissociative states push away emotional connection to traumatic events
• forcing oneself to becoming emotionally numb (which avoids pain ... but also joy in life)
• Addictions: substances (drugs, food, etc); gambling; escapist activities

Criterion D: At least 2 forms of NEGATIVE ALTERATIONS IN COGNITION AND MOOD.

Negative thoughts or feelings that began or worsened after the trauma, in the following way(s):

• Inability to recall key features of the trauma. / altered sense of reality of one's surroundings or oneself
• This is a dissociative state.
• Overly negative thoughts and assumptions about oneself or the world
• Feeling ashamed of one's own trauma response symptoms
• Living, stuck in a constant state of fear.
• Exaggerated blame of self or others for causing the trauma
• Negative affect
• Persistent inability to experience positive emotions like happiness, satisfaction or loving feelings.
• Decreased interest in activities
• I believe this can correlate with major depression disorder (MDD).
• Feeling isolated
• Detachment from others.
• Difficulty experiencing positive affect

Criterion E: Sufferers may have alterations in arousal and reactivity. (This is not a required criterion). Hyperarousal refers to an abnormally heightened state of anxiety. This may make sufferers more sensitive and overly responsive to stimuli and events in the world around Signs and symptoms include the following.

• Chronic anxiety
• Panic attacks
• Difficulty falling or staying asleep. This is very common. Note that many people with PTSD have comorbidity with major depression disorder (MDD), which has sleep disruption as one key feature.
• Some people try to avoid nightmares (one form of intrusion), thereby disrupting their sleep cycle.
• Night time is very scary by virtue of being dark with unknown sounds that can trigger fear.
• Being constantly on guard for threats (hypervigilance)
• Heightened startle reaction. Being easily startled (excessive startle reflex)
• Sufferers often can no longer walk through life with the same level of pre-trauma calm. 
• Difficulty concentrating
• Anger and angry outbursts
• Irritability or aggression
• Risky or destructive behavior.
• Reckless behaviors are common among sufferers like 
• reckless driving among war veterans 
• reckless sexual behavior among sexually assaulted children. 

Criterion F: The symptoms are required to last for AT LEAST 1 MONTH for the diagnosis. This is noteworthy because anyone in the population is likely to demonstrate the symptoms of PTSD after a traumatic event. However, the difference between someone who can be diagnosed as having the condition is the persistence of the disorder beyond what occurs normally in the population (which is 1 month). In other words, under normal circumstances (for the majority of cases), people recover and 'extinguish the fear', ie stop having the symptoms over time. In contrast, someone suffering with PTSD does not get better. In fact, this disordered way of dealing with fear, ie the inability to overcome the fear as normal is the reason for the classification of this disorder. (This criterion is key for differentiating PTSD from acute stress disorder or ASD that can occur to anyone in the general population but not beyond roughly 1 month.)

Criterion G: Significant functional impairment (social, occupational, etc) is required.

Criterion H: Exclusions are conditions that should not be related to the symptoms. If they are, the sufferer can not be considered to suffer from PTSD.

• the effect of substances
• drugs (pharmaceutical or otherwise) and alcohol 
• another medical condition 
• mild brain injuries

Correlations (biological factors)

Correlations include the following. 

• dysfunctions in hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal axis (or HPA axis). The HPA axis relates to the interaction among the 3 and, by extension how the body responds to stress.
• Deficits in the sleep and arousal regulatory systems. In other words, the person is likely to have challenges maintaining a healthy sleep cycle, likely due to insomnia. Their body and mind's responses are prone to anxiety disorders as they are unlikely to handle stressful situations with feelings of anxiety that are at normal levels for the general population, especially as they relate to circumstances that are similar or reminiscent of the original trauma. 
• dysfunction in the endogenous opioid system. This system naturally creates and releases opioids throughout the body in ways that can promote pain relief, sedation, slowed breathing and euphoria. It therefore helps in managing mood, stress responses and pain. Its arsenal involves the central and peripheral nervous systems. 

Considerations (Family History)

PTSD is also correlated with a family history of mood and anxiety disorders.

Treatment(s) for PTSD

• Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) 

• Exposure therapy has proven very effective.
• Group therapy
• Medication 
• anti-depressants like Selective Serotonin Reuptake Ibhibitora /  SSRIs
• anti-anxiety medications that decrease psychological arousal like Clonazepam 

• Sleep aids
• Self medication, ie the use of alcohol and other substances. Unfortunately, when abused, these substances can worsen symptoms.

CONTENT RELATED TO POST TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER (PTSD)

• Getting help for psychological concerns
• Bipolar Mood Disorder: types 1 & 2
• Anxiety Disorders
• Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD)
• Key features of PTSD include: hyperarousal, re-experiencing, avoidance
• Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (C-PTSD)   
• Dissociative Disorders
• Executive Function Disorder
• Social Psychology
• Narcissism, Psychopathy and SociopathyProtecting oneself from narcissism and flying monkeys
• Cognitive Dissonance'Trauma & Stressor-Related Disorders' (introductory article about this grouping of disorders)

        

• Food for thought

Internal links

• Core PTSD symptoms: re-experiencing, avoidance, and hyperarousal
• treatment

Other

• NF music

Challenges with mental health and fatigue from masking neurodivergence are clues that helps in recognizing neurodivergence, especially for boomers and generation Xers. 

Narcissism, Psycopathy & Sociopathy

The dark triad refers to a personality type that combines narcissism, psychopathy and Machiavellianism. This article will only discuss the first two of these components. However, it clarifies the difference between the psychopathy and sociopathy and is therefore a prelude for the discussion on Machiavellianism.

Narcs are validation seeking, entitled, supercilious, grandiose and arrogant / condescending. Narcissism is a disorder of self esteem. When they do bad things, they are aware of their guilt and may think, "Wow, I should not have done that". However, they go out of their way to hide their wrong doing because they will feel enormous shame, a public emotion.

Conversely, unlike narcisissists who can feel guilt, psychopaths have neither guilt nor shame. While they recognize that people can get hurt, they simply do not care. Paid assassins, corporate / socio political economic hitmen, long term family wreckers and the like are psychopathic. They are likely to say and think, "I really do not give a shit who gets hurt." To be clear, they are often fully aware of how they are hurting others. They might be described as having 'dark empathy' in that they can skillfully read the vulnerabilities of others for the sake of exploiting them. For instance, they are often unscrupulous advertisers and salemen who are well aware that they are forcing others to overextend themselves. Ultimately, psychopaths view the world as instruments to be used for the fulfilment of their personal desires. They are more likely to engage in criminality than narcissists because they are less worried about the consequences of criminal activity. Psychopaths do not suffer the same self esteem deficit that requires constant validation. 

The difference between the psychopath and sociopath is that while the psychopath is born, the sociopath is made.

Psychopaths are said to have a non-normal autonomic / sympathetic system. That system is responsible for fight or flight responses at the knowledge of one's having broken rules, done something embarrassing and so on. For normal people, the fear response (to the consequences) manifests itself with a racing heart beat, sweating and so on. A psychopath however does not have a reaction. In fact, this is the reason psychopaths are able to pass lie detection tests. She or he can handle situations that will commonly stress normal individuals, like being confronted by authority figures and so on.

Psychopathy is also called 'antisocial personality disorder'. In order to get such a diagnosis, there must be a discernible pattern of behaviors of complete disregard for rules and lack of care before the age of 15. For instance, children demonstrating this tendency will have engaged in activities without feeling remorse like harming other children for no reason other than pleasure, stealing, arson and so on.

Sociopaths learn to become like a psychopath for survival. They often came from a very rough background, neighborhood, parents who taught them to break rules, persons trained in unscrupulous businesses, persons trained in the military, etc. They usually have trouble with the behavior at first. However, overtime, their nervous system becomes trained to become de-sensitized and less triggered by ordinarily stressful events. Such individuals may be described as having been really normal earlier in life but having changed at some point after certain type of exposure to 'deviant friends' etc.

CONTENT RELATED TO NARCISSISM, PSYCHOPATHY & SOCIOPATHY

• Social psychology
• Flying Monkeys 101
• Character assassination
• How to escape toxic relationships
• Cord cutting
• Grooming 101
• Coercive Control
• Being stalked by narcissists 
  
  

All psychopaths are narcissists but NOT all narcisissts are psychopaths.

Are You a Civilian Manchurian Candidate? Take Control of Your Mind!

These thoughts have haunted me for too long. Furthermore, I felt worse because I could never find the 'right' time to share them. So although now seems to be imperfect timing, I'll just take the plunge anyway. You see, the pain I feel seems to deepen through daily life and the silence I maintain. This pain is not due merely to my individual experiences of abuse, rape, torture, defamation, forced silence and the like. Rather, although most of you probably feel you can not relate to someone like me, you know, the type many of you call a "weirdo" because of my anxiety issues like chronic c-PTSD, OCD and so on, I still see so much of myself in you, ie you the public (who see yourselves as non weirdos).
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Let me explain. Your likely resistance to my last statement is somewhat justified in that, in a way, a non weirdo seems completely fine while weirdos stand out. Even as otherwise strangers, weirdos spot each other amidst a crowd. This is truest for those of us who are finally self-aware (regarding our circumstances). For instance, it took only 1 hour after a first face-to-face meeting with a man and settling into his home for a one week stay as a house guest before we knew it was safe to share our 'secrets' with each other. He is 60-something and says he was one of the earliest subjects of MK Ultra mind control experimentation on children. That conversation in his living room was his tearful exorcism of sorts. He also spoke of working for the CIA and being trained in various mental exercises. During my stay in his semi-isolated home in the mountains (outside the US), he allowed me to really see him. I now feel sufficiently qualified to pronounce him a broken man who dwells in the pits of hell. Mind you however, unlike me, he does not show overt signs of anxiety. His pain is even more of a 'secret' to those who only see an inexplicable social dropout or a non weirdo who frequently drinks, smokes pot, obsesses over sex and swears a lot. Just from my current travels of nearly 3 months, I could speak of 2 other similar cases but I think his will suffice.

Bear with me as I deviate initially towards the differences between the weirdos and those of you who consider yourselves non weirdos. This is necessary as the differences create the context from which the parallel will hopefully become more apparent.

A key difference is that a weirdo's situation occurs in a way that is far more striking. Specifically, the weirdo's circumstances are individual and the consequences manifest so rapidly and poignantly within our individual lifetimes. This is the case to the extent that even a few non weirdos, who are astute or specifically trained, can detect the neuroses and less subtle tics we weirdos try to hide.

Some of the trauma I experienced sent me to very dark places, especially early childhood trauma. That trauma either started or pronounced phenomena I have only recently begun to read about and learn words for. Some examples include altered states of consciousness, seeing (what is apparently either impossible or hard for most other people to see), out of body experiences (OBE) and physical and emotional empathy. While new age and intuitive non weirdos refer to some of these phenomena as "spiritual" and even "psychic", conventional psychology practitioners refer to the same phenomena as "mental illness", "unexplained phenomena" or "a manifestation of your belief system" (a possible euphemism for 'we think you're making that up'). In fact, some non weirdos, especially new agers, are so enchanted by these phenomena, they eagerly seek after what I had previously considered my shameful werido phenomena. BTW, many people have positive experiences of these phenomena without trauma. So, to be clear, I am referring to situations in which these phenomena are trauma-based and unpleasant.

The difference between the general public of non-weirdos and weirdos that highlights our similarity is the fact that your trauma and its effect are far more insidious. For instance, instead of occurring at the individual level (like a personal mental breakdown following the MK Ultra program), your type of trauma and its effects occur across entire groups at once. This collective experience is therefore easily woven into 'normal' life without question. Furthermore, the collective trauma is not as poignant and its effect not as rapid as with individuals. Instead, it is slow, insidious and deep. I liken the case of what I call the collective experience of trauma to that of the proverbial frog that remains calm in water over a gentle heat.

To clarify, had the water been scorching hot from the beginning, that frog would have more readily recognized the harm caused to its body, much like the trauma suffered by the weirdo.

The basis for my sadness is two-fold. If non weirdos are likened to the frog, they are unlikely to save themselves since they will remain unaware of the gradual harm they suffer. Also, I see my experiences playing out in slow motion with you. I confess; sometimes, I would rather selfishly ignore you and your pain, because I think you (the collective you) remained stoic, silent and inactive when I needed your help. However and fortunately or unfortunately, I am still making baby steps to do that at will. Needless to say, I feel duty bound to speak and tell you what I see.

Allow me to digress to better make my point. Last night (19th June), I was approached by one of the main cast members of a popular series named Game of Thorns (along with his teenage son). We were spending time at a beach bar in a tiny and quiet tourist town. Since I have not watched television for several years, I realized his fame only by chance when we eventually broached the topic of his profession in our conversation.

There have been some points in my life when I tasted the sense of self actualization and its consequent sense of personal power, hopefulness and joy. Watch and you will see it in anyone on top of his game! It is a happy state that sharpens your senses, whit and intelligence. That! That is heaven! It enlivens you, even if outwardly expressed with a quiet je ne sais quoi. With envy, I recognized my erstwhile state in him ... and his son. Anyway, I now cringe at my naiveté in doing an unthinkable thing; I asked him about the inner workings of production in his industry, as it relates to the endless inclusion of ritualistic symbolism. As before, he responded quickly ... but way off point. Within seconds, he had deflected the course of the conversation to how powerful and scientifically calculating advertisements were. He spoke of how they hypnotize and profoundly influence people's psyches. (I salute myself for having not forced the issue.)

When I returned to my room at the end of the night, I satisfied my curiosity about the Game of Thorns on Youtube. Sure enough, there he was, the man with whom I had just spent 5 hours. A Youtuber had uploaded a video of the sacrificial ritual of a child (Shireen Baratheon). The parents agreed to it. They justified it in their minds; their child's sacrifice was to save others from starving. People watched. Most spectators were men that looked like robotized soldiers. They simply stared at the proceedings with an empty, stoic look. No one responded to her screams for help. When the mother eventually assumed a caring role, as if suddenly awakened from a spell (of justification), the men subdued her, pushing her to the ground. Perhaps this is not surprising as the Game of Thrones actor had said that the social order placed women at a lower level than men. (It turns out the mother is a queen). However, he also said that Game of Thorns "empowered" women because they found often deceitful ways of getting their way. The only other woman on the scene was cold and without care. Ironically, she officiated the ceremony. Against the backdrop of the child's high pitched screams, the lighting on the spectators changed drastically to highlight the colour of the clothing of only the second woman. She wore a purple robe. Everyone else turned to a pale black and white. I will not pretend to understand the scene fully. However, it resembles the now infamous 'Cremation of Care' ritual. (In this context, 'care' may be understood in terms of what Mark Passio refers to as the 8th or generative hermetic principle after the 7 discussed in the Kybalion. In a nutshell, 'care' deals with the focus, conscious or subconscious of one's mental energies. From my limited understanding of ritual magick, purple combines the energies of the red projective masculinity of the conscious mind and blue receptive maternal femininity of the subconscious mind. I've often heard that we are now in the age of the divine feminine mother. However, this second woman seems to represent the debasement of that. When magick carries distorted intentions, purple apparently has a tyrannical influence. So perhaps the scene symbolizes that this woman's lack of care had triumphed over the whole mind. (Happy for your thoughts).

Within milliseconds, each advancing frame sucked me back through several painful points of my life. At the instant of realization of her betrayal and impending death, I saw her story but was jolted back to the harsh aloneness I knew at 9. I tell you; a father can sacrifice his child and ignore  her calls of distress. Although I now understand his need to safeguard his wealth and social standing and the real challenges he faced, aloneness still haunts me. ... I see the fire being lit at her feet and ... my eyes sting. He could never have truly loved me! Un-loveable am I! He watched his wife starve me, his then 9-year old child, in their upper middle class home. He sat by silently as she repeatedly played mental games that I later learnt are used to break inmates in prisons and concentration camps. He even participated in trying to thwart my progress and break my sense of ambition. ... The girl screamed in pain for being unanswered. ... What was he thinking when she inserted a suppository into my vagina to prematurely force me to bleed shortly after my 10th birthday? ... Where was his mind as the girl screamed through her painful death? ... I was dying inside. He only demanded that I stop that "nonsense" meaning my nervous tics because I was "embarrassing" him ... I know this kind of television is unsafe for me but the changing frames have already sucked me in a stupor. The scenes suck me deeper, whirling me in a giddy stupor and throwing me about into entirely new directions towards a series of painful memories. When I almost drowned at 19 in a whirlpool, he was present but did and said nothing. ... Her screams were shrilling and her father just watched ... and I slip a little further into that dark place. It is oddly comfortable but only because it is a very familiar place. Reaching that point of utter helplessness and knowing I was about to die was so familiar. I knew at once that I had nearly died before but could not remember the finer details - because no one ever mentioned them. ... The girl's mother appeared. ... I would subsequently learn that, when I was a baby, my natural mother had apparently banged me about nearly to the point of death (and he knew). That day, I suddenly realized that there was at least some truth to my father's saying that my natural mother "tried to kill" me. The unexplained kinks in my spine and ongoing effect on my structure finally made sense. His general lack of concern when not under public scrutiny also made sense. It was consistent with the fact that neither he nor his mother appeared to have done anything in my defense. Other people's apathy and unwillingness to help cut like a knife. Them too?! Who do I have then? Un-loveable am I! I doubt anyone ever reached out to my father in a direct way that he would understand.

You might think; But that is just your weirdo stuff. I assure you, it is not. Be patient! I hope you will learn to use my more poignant weirdo circumstances to see how trauma can hurt you. During our time together, the Game of Thrones actor scribbled his video recommendation on a napkin. It featured people's emotional reactions while looking at Game of Thorns. I later found another Youtube video showcasing people's reactions to that same Game of Thorns child sacrifice of Shireen Baratheon. People featured in the video are so emotionally hijacked by the scene that their panic-stricken expressions, screams and tears make me see that even they experienced trauma at some level. BTW, I doubt the featured people are all weirdos. The effect of these videos was cumulative. I found that watching the reactions of these strangers was a stronger tear jerker than the original Game of Thorns scene. In fact, at one point, a dog had become so distressed at his family's emotional reaction (to the film) that (s)he began to comfort the lady. As I write this, I question the sick addiction that allowed me to remain sucked in, to keep watching despite the obvious pain. I know those non-weirdos have that issue too. They kept watching too.

A counsellor's cautionary advice comes to mind. Stimuli (in violent movies and the news) can easily hypnotize and traumatize viewers. The problem with this is that  the constant bombardment of these psychological stimuli continually re-traumatizes people without giving their psyche enough time to heal naturally over time.

Furthermore, the point of all the trauma-based research and experimentation has been mind control of ordinary people. Research has long shown that trauma is a gateway, whether it is like Willie Lynch's method of "making a slave" (ie 1800s social eugenics experimentation in Barbados to create mental slaves of black people), MK Ultra (ie a CIA-sponsored program of traumatization and mental slavery of North Americans), movies, extreme child abuse by family and so on. My ex MK Ultra / CIA host made it clearer to me that CIA hit men and other kinds of operatives are real, and not merely cinematic creations as many people seem to believe.

Another point of my sadness is that even when people recognize the reality of these phenomena in CIA programs, movies and so on, they do not recognize how these things are also part of even their personal daily life. Anyone of us is a potential operative, much like how any regular Joe in the unaware society; policemen, teachers, children on a playground and so on can be taken over by Agent Smith in the Matrix movie. Although they still look like a policemen, your teacher and so on, they can momentarily act on Mr Smith's behalf, as an agent of the matrix. Some people would call this the matrix of the 'Illuminati'. My wish however is that we question our reactions, thoughts and impulses to recognize this in ourselves. I think we will see that the so-called Illuminati does not stop at the hands of big-wig masons but that it lays within us as a potential switch that can be turned on at anytime, if we remain unaware of it. We are all potential super soldiers even without firearms or 'civilian super soldiers' as I call it..

I believe that carefully engineered and institutionalized racism (as seen in Lynch's speech) has been only one of several experiments from which the wise person from any background should learn. Unfortunately however, humans care almost only when they eventually see that their personal lives are adversely affected. For instance, some years ago, Alex Jones cautioned white America to 'wake up and realize that the target is no longer only darker skinned people'. Before that point, not too many people were paying attention.

A wise person would recognize the highly polarizing tactics that strengthens mental (and other forms of) slavery of all of us. If you took advantage of privileges that mainstream grants you because you are in its favour (because of socioeconomics, ethnicity, nationality and so on), you are an unwitting 'house slave' kind of agent for the matrix. That hierarchy of which you are a VIP also fits within another larger one. I have seen too much of this when dealing with masons and one of the world's most powerful multibillion dollar corporations. Since each matrix exists inside a larger matrix, it is only a matter of time before the shit comes right back to you. I promise! I will illustrate that a little later.

You are all being played like pawns against each other. More recently, the media has switched gears. It is not simply encouraging one group to scorn another but for both groups to fight against each other. I highly recommend Frater Xavier's Youtube video. It not only illustrates how neuro-linguistic programming (NLP) is used to subliminally influence your mind but, more importantly, how you can prevent this influence and  'take control of your mind'. I welcome your suggestions of other well presented material in the comments section below.

Consider that, unlike my ex MK Ultra / CIA host, I was never formally part of any program (as far as I know). I do not know enough of my stepmother's background except that she once bragged to me about how good she was at psychology and getting people to do what she wanted. She might have simply read about and applied these techniques. Anyone with sufficiently strong intention could do that. On that basis, I ask you, the non-weirdo public to recognize your susceptibility to the powers of trauma and mind control by people far more knowledgeable than my stepmother, mother, father or the wealthy corporation. You do not have to be formally enrolled in an MK Ultra program to be traumatized and fixed with triggers.

In closing, I will voice my final 3 wishes:

1.  I wish that publishers (Youtubers, bloggers and the like) who understand how, will 'fight back with positive NLP' and other similar mental conditioning techniques.

2.  I wish that you, the reader (and I) will curb the usual feelings of resentment towards my natural father (or people like him). That hasty resentment is too polarizing. It will only force us to dwell narrowly on an extreme perspective without seeing the bigger picture. Do not get me wrong. I am not happy with his choices regarding me. He was neglectful and abusive. But I know he sacrificed me to avoid further ill treatment and very real pain. 

 3.  I wish that you, the reader (and I) will curb resentment towards people who seem to have privilege in a matrix. Also, I wish that those people of 'privilege' within a matrix 'fight the temptation to be (Illuminati) agents / civilian super soldiers'. Let's consider my birth and step mothers. Although they were privileged with relatively high socioeconomic status because of their 'more desirable' physical appearances, these things trapped them too. Unfortunately, their trap was not easily recognizable. It made them feel comfortable, like our proverbial frog in the slow heat. They felt a need to maintain their socioeconomic status at any cost. Unfortunately, that cost was high; they spent their entire adult lives prostituting themselves in love-less marriages. They were entrapped to the extent that each woman married and then re-married the same man. For instance, in each case of both these women's multiple marriages, the husband had become very financially successful despite earlier life socioeconomic hardships. No amount of worship by their husbands could quell the scorn these trophy wives felt. These women continued to overtly scorn their husbands' humble beginnings. How many times both taunted my father for having had a mother who was "only a maid". These reminders were retorts in the smallest and completely unrelated disagreements. (They certainly never demanded their husbands stop their subservient facilitation with the proud statements that "she has a very high status"). Consequently, the love and friendship I have seen in marriages between equals was always lacking. Their lives were reduced to keeping up appearances. So in need for continued god-like adoration, it is likely that these women were incapable of marrying men who they truly admired, ie men who they may have considered to be equals. Both used their children as pawns in their game without allowing themselves the gift of love. Similarly, my ex MK Ultra / CIA host may well appear like a demigod in the 'third world country' where he lives. One day, he told me that he 'had to tell one of the gardeners not to think but only follow instructions because the gardener was so dumb that things fell apart whenever he thought, you know, like all the other uneducated people around there.' I imagine the gardeners and other local people would never guess that he lives among them because he is running from abuse from others to whom he also is only a slave. Do you see how he does not belong only in the 'privileged' group but also the group I mentioned in wish number 2? It is unfortunate that when he has the power to change the status quo, he placed himself at the other polar extreme. My dream involves recognizing that matrices can be collapsed with the realization of these wishes.

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CONTENT RELATED TO SUBCONSCIOUS MIND CONTROL:

• Undetectable Mind Control (a lecture by Fritz Springmeier)
• Britain's Monarch Program for Super Soldiers (David Marrow's story)
• Character assassination
• Dissociative disorders, the clinical psychology behind being a Manchurian candidate
• C-PTSD
• An Example of Social Eugenics: The Making of a Slave (a speech by Willlie Lynch's   
• See Mark Passio's Youtube channel
• Social psychology

How to escape toxic relationships with narcissists and psychopaths

About every quarter or so, I undertake my full body cleanse program. Among its main purposes is to remove toxins from my physical body. However, although it started out as a 'body' cleanse, I continue to update it to be more holistic (i.e. to also incorporate the mental and spirit bodies). For instance, it now includes components for mental cleansing and alchemy. However, this entry proposes its newest component, that is to routinely escape toxic relationships.

This step-by-step method focuses on relationships with an extreme type of toxic person called a 'narcissist' and 'psychopath' (i.e. an 'extreme narcissist'). Here are the steps.

1. Take control! Educate yourself. This will help you to identify toxic personality traits in others as well as understand how you may unintentionally trigger them. There are 2 aspects to this step: a) learn about the social psychology and b) examine how people affect you because narcissists and psychopaths are emotional or psychic vampires. .

1.a. The psychology of a narcissist includes the following traits.

• Exaggerates his/her own importance, achievements, beauty, intelligence, power, talents and so on 

• Has exaggerated fantasies about his/her own importance, achievements, beauty, intelligence, power, talents and so on 

• Feels entitled to "the best" of everything
• Reacts to criticism with anger, shame or humiliation

• Takes advantage of others to reach his / her own goals

• Requires constant attention and positive reinforcement from others

• Becomes jealous, hurt or rejected easily

• Lacks empathy and disregarding the feelings of others

• Is obsessed with oneself

• Pursues mainly selfish goals

• Trouble keeping healthy relationships

• Appears unemotional

CAUTION: The symptoms of narcissistic personality disorder (NDP) resemble traits of people with strong self-esteem and confidence. However, to differentiate, note underlying psychological traits that are pathological (or persistent). Narcissists have such a heightened sense of self-worth that they consider themselves inherently superior. Yet, they have a fragile self-esteem and cannot handle criticism. They will often compensate for this by belittling or disparaging others to inflate their own self-worth. In fact, the tendency to be sadistic is highly characteristic of narcissism (i.e. versus other psychological conditions affecting levels of self-worth).

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1.b. Below is a quick list of the traits of a psychopath. However, to study this phenomenon further, consider a few good resources like the book 'Dangerous Liaisons: How to Recognize and Escape from Psychopathic Seduction' by Claudia Moscovici. Here is the list.

• Is glib (fluent but insincere and shallow words)

• Is manipulative. Conning, ie can deceive others into doing something.

• Is callous

• Is without remorse

• Is non empathetic

• Is superficial

• Is parasitic

• NB, psychopaths are NOT psychotic (i.e. psychopaths do not suffer with major mental illness like schizophrenia that would have made it difficult or impossible to differentiate between right from wrong. For instance, if police are present, they will not perform unlawful acts.)

2. Beware of excessive flattery and unwarranted affection, especially if you feel vulnerable. When dealing with a potential romantic partner, focus on his or her character rather than (nice) gestures. For instance, consider how he or she views and treats others and how he or she reacts when faced with opposition. Regarding this final point, I have always felt that insight into others come through observation of how they 'fight' and handle challenges

3. Establish firm personal boundaries. Narcissists need to be kept at a distance emotionally and often physically. Some ways of doing this are as follows. Cut all forms of contact (like email, text messages, telephone calls and physical meetings). If you must remain in contact (possibly because of your job or children), state your needs unapologetically. For instance, when they wish to dominate situations, be firm by stating your needs. For instance, you may say "I need ..." rather than ask, or worse yet beg, with a submissive "Please ...". Do not share your feelings of hurt with a narcissist because your emotional pain will encourage his or her narcissism. In that case, reserve those feelings for someone else you can trust. Once you have established boundaries, maintain them. 

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4. Identify and eliminate your vulnerabilities from their root. Research shows that some psychopaths can accurately identify vulnerable strangers merely through subconscious observation of something as subtle as the length of your stride. In other words, you do not even need to have consciously broadcasted that you have vulnerabilities. However, your vulnerabilities attract psychopaths at a subconscious level. Of course, this is an example of the law of attraction. Whether you experienced major past trauma or something less severe like hurt when you received a harsh look after you spilt milk at 7, several techniques exist. For instance, it is possible to do shadow work alone or with a professional. I am currently finding the following book very useful: The Shadow Effect: Illuminating the Hidden Power of Your True Self by Deepak Chopra, Debbie Ford and Marianne Williamson.  

5. Psychopathy is a perfect example of 'psychic vampirism' (aka 'energetic vampirism'). If you are to take control, it is time to understand the 'energetic vampire' or 'psychic vampire' phenomenon. Furthermore, learn how to remove negative psychic cords between psychic vampires and you. 

6. Make a list of how you will fill the void of ending toxic relationships. Make it very short and realistic. List things to do to execute your plan. Do not forget to include support systems. Establish personal deadlines to accomplish the items on your list.

OTHER MATERIAL ON HOW TO ESCAPE TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS WITH NARCISSISTS AND PSYCHOPATHS

• Psychic Cords, Energetic Vampirism & Solutions for Victims AND Psychic Vampires
• How to do Psychic Cord Cutting
• You do not need to have been a CIA MK Ultra mind control victim to be a 'Civilian Super Soldier'. Mind control institutions and programs are institutionalized forms of narcissistic behaviour.
• Flying monkeys do the bidding for narcissists. See how to deal with the 'flying monkeys' of a narcissist to minimize the abuse.

Video: YouTuber Dr Ramani 'What to do when a narcissist turns people against you.'